Resting in the darkness with only the light shining from the screen of my laptop, I realize that I am on the verge of something. The slight pang of anxiety that takes jabs at my confidence tells me that I am on the verge of yet another failure; yet another not so wise choice...but this time feels a little different because my courage is rising up in a way I've never seen before. Courage is standing strong next to my heart unwilling to be moved, and while I would usually succumb to the hints of doubt and reminders of my losses, I am deciding to be different this time. I am deciding to believe that courage is right this time. I am deciding to give my disappointments a kiss goodbye. I am bidding them farewell. Every disappointment has taught me a lesson, but there simply comes a point when looking back is no longer an option.
I'm on the verge of something.
And I've never been more afraid.
Yet at the same time, I've never felt so free.
I'm resting in the darkness with only the light shining from the screen of my laptop and I finally get it. Greatness has been right at my fingertips all along. My heart has screamed for it, but my mind has been skeptical of whether I can handle the giants in my promised land. But as the light from my laptop boldly breaks into the darkness, I feel myself on the verge of breaking into my destiny.
I'm on the verge of something. Are you?
Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it." -Numbers 13:30 NIV